How I wish time could be turn back and it was August 31, 2012 instead. I miss it all so much: I miss the morning calls from the mosques in Turkey and Egypt, I miss the different beautiful languages that I couldn’t understand, I miss the people that I’ve met and friends I’ve made, I miss the food from every country, I miss the scorching hot weather and the extreme cold, I miss my fellow Globalites and my professors, I miss traveling, I miss my suitcases, I miss living off of three pairs of pants and seven shirts, I miss flying, I just miss every single little thing so much with everything in me right now.
Since I’ve been back, I finished off spring semester then worked a part time job this summer in addition to preparing mentally for senior year to roll around and to finish off college. I’ve been stressed about post-graduation plans because I have no idea what the future holds. When I was in high school, everyone told me that college was the real world but they lied. College is essentially a bubble: you’re living on your own with a bunch of other people your age and your only responsibility is to learn and absorb information. It is carefree and fun. The real world is after graduation when you are thousands of dollars in debt and the bills are coming and you have no idea what you want to do in life or where to go and you don’t want to live at home but you can’t afford to live on your own either and everyone around you seems to be happy and doing well and you’re in this slump and it all just sounds AWFUL. I’m terrified.
However, if things work out in my favor, I’ll be putting my TEFL certificate to use and I could possibly end up in either Hong Kong or South Korea come August 2014. I’m crossing my fingers. To be frank, though, I’m not too thrilled about South Korea’s climate (oh so similar to home). I would much rather go to Hong Kong, BUT, I think I will be so depressed in Hong Kong because when I was there, I lived in the Hyatt with all of my friends and to return with nothing…well… Anyway, I am so fickle and skeptical and I worry every day about what I should do and which program I should apply for and which direction to go. I don’t know what’s going to happen, where I’m going to be, if I’m even going anywhere at all. I just don’t know! It’s overwhelming…but I’ll get through it, you’ll get through it. Everything will work out the way it’s supposed to, so I’ll keep my head up and you do the same. 🙂
I long to study abroad again but my schedule senior year is already packed so I won’t be having any adventures to share anytime soon. Global ‘14 left yesterday and my heart aches and shatters when it realizes that this time last year, it was us who was at the airport meeting so many strangers that would become our new friends, it was us flying on an eight hour flight to Geneva, it was us. I dread my now and envy where I’ve been, but I’m so pumped and excited for this year’s group and the adventures ahead of them. Their theme revolves around music headed by professor of the music department so that should be super duper awesome!!
Well, I suppose this is the last time I’ll post on tvglobal. I just wanted to drop a note on what I’ve been doing and how I’ve been doing, but ultimately, to celebrate Global’s one year anniversary. The five months abroad was the best five months of my entire life thus far and I have no regrets. I would do it all over again in a heartbeat (with the same globalites, of course!) if I could.
Finally, thank you for reading up to this point and sharing this incredible life changing journey with me. Much love and appreciation from the bottom of my heart.
As a final note, I wish you all Health, Wealth, and Happiness.
With so much love,